Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Missing... (A Blog Dedicated to My Mom)

(posted by ange (written February 27)

Just home from a delicious dinner of grilled sea bass. Ran into our bartender Jose who recommended the place. I am getting the sense that this is a pretty small little world here.

As you’ll have figured out, I also went to the internet cafĂ© tonight to post my blogs and do some emails. Ended up having little time for emailing, other than to mom. As I sit here now with my nice big cup of tea, all cozy in my sweats, cigarette going, I’m feeling something. Not home sick per se. I certainly don’t want to be at home. Just missing, I guess. I really miss my mom. We talk everyday, even when we have nothing to say to each other. Tonight it is hitting me that I’m not having those calls. I’m out of touch, so to speak. I wonder what is going on or not going on. I know she is missing me like crazy. I had 3 emails from her in my inbox today. I hated that I hadn’t been able to answer them and that she is at home wondering what is going on over here. Yes, I really miss my mom. Not in a sad way, but in that kind of way where there is just something missing. Loret would love it here. Loret would love me here.

Though the world is so connected and communication technology so advanced, being on the other side of the world and 8 hours ahead makes the kind of communication my mom and I have just a little tricky. How many times already I’ve wanted to call her up to tell her something exciting I’ve seen or done. Mom – I can’t wait for the moment when the timing is right and I hear your voice on the other end of the phone. I love you.

1 comment:

cathyemily said...

Aw geez, you've already got me crying tears of self pity as I try to thaw out from our freezing temperatures while viewing your sunny beach photos, NOW you've got me misty eyed after reading your beautiful sentiments towards the wonderful Loret.
That's it! I'm making myself a pitcher of sangeria even if it is
-1C outside!